Day 18-22

Well it’s been awhile! Toronto had a major ice storm come through and create havoc for thousands of people across the region. Lost power for two days! I did get a bit lazy though when the power did end up coming back haha. I was fortunate though, there are some people that I know of that have lost power for longer and still don’t have it back. It’s a pretty rough time to have something like that happen, not everyone was fortunate to have a Christmas dinner and it’s really cold these days. The house at it’s lowest went to…

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Day 17

Today was pretty quiet, went out for a quick all you can eat sushi lunch. I didn’t feel as “depressed” today, just kind of neutral I would say.  Not so much anxiety either, which was kind of nice. I mostly feel stressed when I think about going back to school and having to write the finals I postponed. Hopefully, i’ll be able to get in some study time when I get back to school. I don’t think I will have much time to study when I am in Costa Rica. For the most part I was incredibly tired when I…

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Day 16

Finished my puzzle today! Took three days and 1000 pieces later + a sore back and bruised knees. It feels nice to accomplish something like this though 🙂 Here’s the finished product: Also saw my counsellor today. Mostly talked about how things were going and what some of my thoughts were. He suggested I would be a good match for peer support groups, but he will need to get back to me on a group in London. There’s a nice program called WRAP (http://www.mentalhealthrecovery.com/wrap/) that would be beneficial for anyone experiencing any form of mental health issues. It’s for both…

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Day 15

Feeling a little less depressed today and not much in terms of feeling anxious. Saw a psychiatrist today. Seemed like a pretty good fit for me. He talked about how he will use some hypnosis, as well as some cognitive-behavioural therapy. We also discussed some of my thoughts including my need to want to be the “best” or “perfect”. Almost like God, like nothing is ever good enough or I have to be better than other people. We also talked about how I have a need to get everyone to like me, so I go out of my way to…

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Day 14

Two official weeks since being diagnosed with major depression have passed already. It’s crazy to think how far i’ve come in these few weeks. The tears and negative thoughts have stopped for the most part. I have a little bit more energy and my concentration is slowly coming back. I still feel kind of isolated and withdrawn, but hopefully that will change in the next bit. I definitely don’t feel anxious today, I haven’t really felt that depressed either. I also kind of got a good sleep yesterday for the most part too, which was a nice change from the…

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Day 13

Woke up a few times throughout the night as usual. Still rough trying to sleep through most of the night, miss those days. Saw the family doctor today though, she decided to up my dosage since the two week mark is when you know whether or not how effective the medicine will be usually. It has been positive so far in stabilizing my mood maybe moving me from a 5 to a 6.5/10, but thats as much as it will probably go on 10mg, so now we’re on to 15mg. She did a depression test like thing and I was…

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Day 12

Woke up bright and early to meet a family friend, who was going to take me to meet her trainer friend. He was supposed to teach me some exercises to elevate my mood and energy levels, as well as learning some ways to eat healthier. However, plans fell through so it will be rescheduled for sometime later this week. I feel a little less tired today, but I didn’t really sleep that well last night. Not as much anxiety today wither, more just feeling down still. Will probably bring it up to the doctor tomorrow when I see her and…

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Day 11

Hello there! These are the flowers I was talking about yesterday. They look prettier in person, but the colours were really nice to wake up to this morning. I love the smell too haha. It was a really nice gesture by my mom to welcome me home and try to lift my mood since I told her about my depression. Today is pretty much just a lazy day, haven’t really done too much. The weather outside just makes you want to curl up into a ball and sleep. The roads are extremely slippery too, so many accidents on the highway…

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Day 10

Home today! It’s nice to be home and have actual home cooked meals once again. Plus I got to see my other dog since he’s to hyper to sit in a car for two hours to come stay with me at school. My mom bought be flowers for my arrival home, I will take a picture tomorrow. They look really pretty. I’m still pretty tired, hopefully this will subside soon because it’s pretty exhausting being tired all the time. I still need to work on making my sleep schedule more consistent and stop waking up in the middle of the…

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Day 9

Not going to lie, feeling pretty tired today. Sometimes I feel like the depression is passing, and then you get moments where you feel empty and devoid of emotion. Always seems like i’m bored, but I don’t feel like doing anything. It’s kind of sad to be honest. I guess today isn’t really one of the “good days” people talk about. Other than that, i’m preparing to go home for the winter break tomorrow. Was hoping to get some studying done before the week was over but I don’t think it’s going to happen. It’s been pretty hard to gather…

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