Woke up a few times throughout the night as usual. Still rough trying to sleep through most of the night, miss those days.
Saw the family doctor today though, she decided to up my dosage since the two week mark is when you know whether or not how effective the medicine will be usually. It has been positive so far in stabilizing my mood maybe moving me from a 5 to a 6.5/10, but thats as much as it will probably go on 10mg, so now we’re on to 15mg. She did a depression test like thing and I was still not in an ideal range, I got a 22. I probably would have been a 25 before I went on the medication though. I would think the scale would be out of maybe 30 or 35, so not much of an improvement, but still better than nothing at all. I just have to prepare myself that this is not going to be a short term battle. It took a long time to build up, so it’s going to be awhile before I feel “normal” again. Or so I hope….sigh.
Other than that, don’t feel as much anxiety today, but I just don’t feel like i’m in a mood to talk. Saw a counsellor right after the doctor and kind of filled him in on everything. I don’t know a lot of the depression seems situational with work, school, people, and other things. He did suggest to take sometime and so something that I enjoy. I told him I would watch TV, so he gave me that to do as my homework until I see him on Thursday again.
Went to Wal-Mart and bought some cute Winnie the Pooh Christmas pjs. Excited to wear them. Also bought a 1000 piece puzzle to work on for some “me-time” while I watch my “homework”. Maybe i’ll do some of my readings tonight and work on the puzzle. Was thinking of watching Scandal or House of Cards.
If anyone has good recommendations on shows I would gladly take them in, or even books!