Fish Oil and Depression?

Recently met someone whom I opened up to about my struggles with depression over the past while. I silently questioned myself in debating whether I would struggle with this forever out loud. She looked at me and paused and then said “take a bit of cod fish oil daily”. I looked at her puzzled and briefly brushed the idea away skeptical of naturopathic remedies, that is until I got home and looked for the scientific evidence to support it. It turns out there is quite a bit of research starting to trickle out over the past few years show a few…

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Mood of the Day

Seems this song has been on my mind for quite a bit of the day. Not sure why but makes me feel a bit relaxed. Can never go wrong with a little bit of Oasis. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=g3C7DECI0jU Cheers, M

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The Unknown.

I seem to be growing up in a generation that doesn’t know how to appreciate what is in front of them, but also in a generation that is based off of anxieties and fears of the unknown, or the future some may call it. Whether it’s in our academic achievement, career possibilities, or even the relationships we have, we as a collective are surrounded by the fear of the unknown. Always thinking about whether this is it or what is the next step or what else is there. We never take a moment to appreciate what we already have right…

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What is depression?

I recently stumbled upon this post when I was going through reddit and it perfectly sums up how I feel when my depression is at my worst. I am currently experiencing unmedicated depression. I have not been awake for more than a 90 minute period today. I have an exam in a subject I love on Monday, but studying for even a few minutes instantly results in a wave of crushing fatigue. I cry every time I wake up, both because I can’t bear the thought of moving and because I am so frustrated with myself that I am being…

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“Snap out of it”

A few days ago I had someone close to me tell me that my battle with depression was nothing but “sadness” and that I needed to “get the f*** over it” and to just “stop”. That i’m faking it and trying to gain sympathy from them in hopes that they will pity me and care for me.  Words have never hurt so bad. I can’t even deny that this would be the first time this has happened to me over the past two years. Never have I felt so shut down by the person who once would give up their world for…

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Photograph.

There’s something about photographs that’s been lost with my generation. All our photos seem to be stored on our computers, phones, hard drives. It wasn’t until I went through the effort of actually printing photos out again did I realize how powerful they are at capturing how you felt at that moment. Sure, many of them are faked for the moment, but the context surrounding the photo itself was always memorable. Whether it was attending an event, looking back at graduation and how proud I was of myself, or looking at photos of family and loved ones. How even in…

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The death of a relationship.

We started off long distance and we finished off long distance. Take it from someone whose relationship once consisted of mainly of FaceTime calls, snapchats, and instant messaging: long distance relationships suck. All this fancy technology is supposed to be great for keeping in touch and being able to stay connected, but it certainly has its limits. At times it would be difficult to appreciate the romance as we gazed lovingly at a pixelated image that is supposed to be representative of each other, and cuddling with our cell phones and laptops as I fall asleep each night left something to…

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Self-Confidence.

A friend of mine recently challenged me (through Facebook) to post 5 pictures of myself that I feel pretty in. I’m so happy that I was included, particularly because I mentioned yesterday in my post that I had been feeling pretty self-concious over the past year with gaining weight. Feel free to take this challenge and post it on your Facebook/ Website/ Blog/ Instagram. This is about building self-confidence and propping not only women up but even men, and most of all yourself. Stay beautiful and stay you. I posted a bit of a caption below each photo to explain…

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The Blues.

Sigh. I don’t know why i’m feeling so blue today. Maybe blue isn’t the right word, I guess i’m just feeling exceptionally down and anxious for a combination of factors I have yet to understand. I guess to put it in more understandable terms, i’m feeling a 4.5/10 today, with 10 being extremely happy. I’m not even sure when I began to feel this way, it’s been building up over the past week or two and today it’s reached a peak. It’s exhausting feeling this way and it’s hard to force a smile when you feel so pained. Yesterday was…

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The Two Year Mark

Hello? To be honest I’m not quite sure how I want to start off this entry. There have been so many times in the past few weeks that I have tossed and turned in bed wanting to write out the thoughts running through my mind, but yet I tried to hush these thoughts in an effort to help me fall asleep. I wanted to make a post today though, I think two years is a pretty significant mark, my journey is still ongoing and every year is a sign of (hopeful) progress. It also makes me realize how much of…

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