Things I Wish To Say.

It has been several months since everything unfolded. Although I realize that your journey has seemingly gone on without me, I honestly anticipated that by now, that you would have paused to reach out and provide something to help deal with everything and not just leaving me with questions and for the longest time, no closure. Please un-brace yourself should you choose to read it, I don’t intend for what I wrote to be a rambling rant about what kind of a horrible person that you are, I feel the exact opposite and have opted, in fact, to be mostly positive…

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Two Powerful Novels.

Two of my favourite novels growing up. Personally, i’m a bigger fan of 1984, but i’m a huge fan of dystopian novels and Brave New World is also a top contender for me. I think i’ll follow up this theme by checking out Ayn Rand’s work and The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood. Personally I think the world today is more similar to the picture painted by Aldous Huxley in Brave New World. A world of genetically modified babies, boundless consumption, casual sex and drugs, maybe not to the extent of the book but it seems like we’re heading that way. Orwell…

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Authenticity.

Never idealize others. They will never live up to your expectations. Don’t over-analyse your relationships. Stop playing games. A growing relationship can only be nurtured by genuineness. Leo F. Buscaglia

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Learning to Love Myself.

When you stop comparing yourself to others, you’ll become truly happy. Before you can truly BE yourself, you have to learn to LOVE yourself fearlessly and effortlessly. We are all magical. Be inspired. Get Creative. Love wholeheartedly. Simple things we can all do. “Sometimes you have to lose yourself in the moon and the stars to find yourself in the sun and the sky “- Penqwen   M

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Being Left To Pick Up the Pieces.

I thought things would be different this time. I thought I wouldn’t be put in a position where I didn’t have to deal with things alone again. That their promise to do differently this time around meant something. Why am I the one left to pick up the pieces and left to clean up things on my own? Instead I feel the same as last time, alone to pick up the pieces to deal with the aftermath and deal with other complications.  It makes me sad to think about and to deal with knowing their support could be used during…

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Contentment and Anxiety.

Finally, a new theme I am absolutely digging right now. As my blog continues to expand and become more visited it’s an exciting step to take. It’s nice finally being able to have my own domain and have a theme in which I finally enjoy looking at on all the formats (ex. computer, tablet, and phone). I’m kind of excited to write my yearly recap post about my blog coming out in early December. This year has been the most successful year for my blog as of late, which is bittersweet in itself. Lately, i’ve struggled to cope with my…

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Winning is Habit

“Winning is not a sometime thing; it’s an all the time thing. “ “You don’t win once in a while; you don’t do things right once in a while; you do them right all the time. Winning is a habit. Unfortunately, so is losing. There is no room for second place. There is only one place in my game, and that’s first place. I have finished second twice in my time at Green Bay, and I don’t ever want to finish second again. There is a second place bowl game, but it is a game for losers played by losers. It…

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The Feeling of Being Let Down.

I guess I shouldn’t be shocked to be let down time and time again. I could use the time to focus on my life and what I need to do, but I can’t. I can’t focus with what’s been said and done. I could be focusing on writing my test tomorrow, but instead I have that pit in my stomach of disappointment, of sadness, of anger, and of fatigue. Instead I sit at my desk trying to figure out my next steps and how to deal with what I’m thinking about and dealing with. That I let things get this…

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Finding Yourself.

There are holes inside each of us that long to be filled. Needs that we desire to have met. For by filling the void, we don’t have to feel the emptiness that resides there after losing someone you loved. The hole can represent the need to seek approval, the yearn for someones affection, one that needs the sense of security knowing someone is there or one that longs for a form of validation that make us feel like we are enough. There’s time in our life where we all search desperately for ways in which we can “fill the void”—an aching,…

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Letting Go.

“You get what you give. I think you can’t expect someone to treat you a certain way. Whatever it is, if you’re getting a lot of negative energy or anger, you have to say, ‘Why am I getting this? Am I doing something to create it?’ And if the answer is honestly no, then get out of that situation.” – Ellen Degeneres  

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A Journey of Self-Discovery.

I spoke to a friend of mine a few nights ago, someone who I had the pleasure of knowing for a limited time but has made a huge impact on me tonight. He reminded me that you can’t compare a dime to a nickel. It put things into perspective for me to be reminded that I have so much to offer the world and to others, I can’t let things continue to hold me back because of my fears. He told me to check out an inspiring documentary on Netflix called- “Tony Robbins- I am not your Guru”. At first…

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