If there is any statement that is more true in life it is that – when one door closes other doors will open. I’ve come to the realization that there are so many different opportunities and directions to go in life that doors are always waiting for you to go through them and experience what is beyond them. You just have to choose which ones you want to go through and which ones you want to leave behind.
Last summer, after my major bout of depression I found out I would not be able to go back to my summer job. Yes, the job that some summer students worked for over 7-8 years. You know the one where I get paid a crap ton of money to do barely anything? The one where I counted on to help me get through school for the next four years. This didn’t happen because of my mental health, but because of a new company wide policy allowing summer students to only work a maximum of three summers, which sucks when you were on your fourth summer.
I was crushed/angry/bitter/upset to say the least. Not only for the fact that I loved most of my co-workers and the work itself (it was so easy) but because I never had to worry about summer employment. I mean why would I have? I was a great employee and was always happily welcomed back by my bosses, so why would I waste energy applying other places. I was also incredibly lucky for the opportunity I had there, I mean how many summer student jobs would pay you over 17 dollars an hour to do some of the easiest (but sometimes quite boring jobs). After the events of last summer I thought I really couldn’t have hit a new low (except I did manage to find the basement of all time lows later that year). Looking back, I think it was a sign from the universe to stop taking things for granted and to take a moment to appreciate what we have.
I spent the past 6.5 months spent in emotional hell with a multitude of factors (see rest of blog) coming into play. Alternating between anxiety, depression, panic, and bouts of genuine happiness. I know things happen for a reason but it still didn’t stop me from feeling jaded about the whole thing.
It started off with thoughts, such as “WHERE THE HECK DOES ONE LOOK FOR JOBS?” to “WHERE DOES ONE FIND A GOOD PAYING AND STABLE SUMMER JOB?” to “HOW DOES ONE HAVE ANYTHING THESE PLACES ARE LOOKING FOR???”.
It’s tough out there, folks. Let me tell you that. At first I started applying for jobs I felt I met the job description and heard nothing back. Then I looked to jobs that were outside the area I was looking for, nothing back. I even went into looking at unpaid internships overseas to debate whether experience was more beneficial than actually being paid to do a job, but figured it wasn’t worth it. Then I went into panic mode, considered taking a year off school to find a full-time job, questioned my life choices, and watched Netflix to make the pain of job searching go away.
Eventually I picked myself back up and scrambled to apply for more summer jobs that were closing. I pulled a Donald and applied for jobs that had nothing to do with what I study to let alone areas I had little experience in. It paid off because after 100 job applications and three interviews (2 of which sucked), I NOW HAVE A GOOD PAYING/STABLE SUMMER JOB FOR THE NEXT 3 YEARS!!! My perseverance of not settling for a minimum wage, part-time, unstable job has paid off finally.
I’ve realized perseverance does pay off. I’m excited for a new chapter with a new company in which I can grow my network and gain new skills that can benefit me throughout life even if not directly related to nursing. I also realize to trust my intuition, I remember applying for the job and feeling positive thoughts but didn’t think much. I also knew as soon as I got the interview I would rock it and get the job. I’ve noticed when I want something, I get it and attract it towards me. I know I subconsciously bombed the other interviews because I wasn’t feeling it, I wasn’t interested in them enough to put in the effort to want to do well. In a sense this is my tragic flaw, I don’t put effort into things I don’t feel are worth my while and I don’t try when I have little interest in something. So I knew as soon as I walked out of the other two interviews I didn’t get the job and deep down I was okay with that. But when I walked out of this interview, I knew I got it.
To be honest, I thought job hunting would have been much easier. I’m proud of all the work i’ve done over the years. I have a wide range of experience in a lot of different areas and I built solid relationships with all the places I have worked or volunteered with. I’ve worked for tourist attractions, the federal government, a major transportation company, volunteered with children, immigrants, and been an advocate for students. Yet, I still found it incredibly hard to stand out in a pool of candidates who also have plenty to offer. It’s nerve wrecking to think of how other people go through the motions of looking for jobs, especially as graduates who have “little to no experience” in the jobs they generally seek.
I’m not religious, but I really do thank whoever helped orchestrate this for me and for drawing it to my attention and allowing me to open a new door. When the door closed last year I thin on some level it was a chance to have a change in going in a new direction. I may not have seen that clearly at the moment last year, but in hindsight, it is crystal clear. The door I thought meant so much to me turned out to be a hindrance to my success, in the sense I had already peaked at that job and had nothing more to help facilitate my growth and development both personally and professionally. Now that I have slowly begun walking through another door, I can see a new path that will hopefully help push me further towards my future successes.
So, for those looking for a boost in morale, remember that when one door closes for you, another door will open in time. It’s tempting to get upset and start focusing on that door again, but don’t. Remember that the door has closed for a reason, and if someone else found it open, then that door was meant for them. Learn let go of past set backs and look around you because you don’t want to miss the new and better opportunities or people that will come your way if you pay attention and open yourself up to new things.