New Beginnings.

It’s been an eventful year to say the least. It’s also crazy to think about the mental/emotional place I was this time last year and to see where I am today. Last year I was broke, riddled with anxiety and depression, and unsure of where I was going in life. Today I am confident, happy, and motivated to stay on the journey I have found myself on.  I have tried to live 2017  to the fullest- I mean this in every way possible. I experienced joy, love, adventure, and great blessings with my entire soul. Even in the most difficult…

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A Letter to the Baby Nurses.

Right now, there is a baby nurse who is searching online and deep inside for an answer. There is a brand new member of the profession who is questioning her calling. There is a newly-minted graduate who wonders how school seemed to teach her everything and nothing all at the same time. There is a greener-than-grass new hire who is praying that she doesn’t kill somebody at work tomorrow, and wonders if she already did yesterday. Dearest baby nurse, don’t let this scary new world drag you down. You’re going to have moments when you are sitting on a toilet…

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The Numbers Game.

I can’t believe it’s already been two years since I graduated from Western! To be honest, I debated whether I should share these pictures because on some level I do feel self-conscious despite the pictures not necessarily being representative of how I look now. I added 5 pictures to showcase how far i’ve come in 4 short years mentally, physically, and emotionally, with the first picture being where I started from. There is a picture for each of the past four years. I know regardless of how I look in those pictures, it doesn’t take away from my character, my…

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Pushing Forward.

For everything I have to be sad about I have 20 others things to be grateful for in my life. I worked my butt off this year in my first year of nursing and despite all the challenges that landed on my plate I was able to push hard and come out with some pretty decent grades. I did in the end have to drop anatomy and physiology, but luckily I had a supportive team who have allowed me to complete the physiology component over the summer at Western to allow me to compliment my previous anatomy courses. I never thought…

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Life’s Changing Tides.

Naturally, life is a bumpy ride. In the flash of an instant, it can go from being downright cruel to magnificent the next, but then it can hand you days where you feel like you are permanently wrecked. But, I am a firm believer in the fact that the universe will never hand us things that we won’t be able to get through. For that anytime I was knocked down by a wave, I came right back up stronger than I was before I went down with the tides.  But it will suck you through a tsunami of tears, of…

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Busy Bee.

Life is in full gear right now. I’m definately missing keeping up with my blog, but I’ve been finding it incredibly hard to find time to update. Hoping after this week things will start to settle down, but I realize I have a looooot to catch up on with school. How about that biochem or even more nerve wrecking the second round of objective structured clinical examinations (OSCEs). I have quite a few blog post ideas that are running through my mind though and i’m pretty excited to get to it whenever I get the chance. Crazy to think just…

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The Woman Who Put Men On The Moon.

MARGARET HAMILTON WASN’T supposed to invent the modern concept of software and land men on the moon. It was 1960, not a time when women were encouraged to seek out high-powered technical work. Hamilton, a 24-year-old with an undergrad degree in mathematics, had gotten a job as a programmer at MIT, and the plan was for her to support her husband through his three-year stint at Harvard Law. After that, it would be her turn—she wanted a graduate degree in math. But the Apollo space program came along. And Hamilton stayed in the lab to lead an epic feat of…

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When One Door Closes.

If there is any statement that is more true in life it is that – when one door closes other doors will open. I’ve come to the realization that there are so many different opportunities and directions to go in life that doors are always waiting for you to go through them and experience what is beyond them. You just have to choose which ones you want to go through and which ones you want to leave behind. Last summer, after my major bout of depression I found out I would not be able to go back to my summer…

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What My Depression Has Taught Me.

I thought I would finally start blogging a little more about my experiences with mental illness now that I am feeling a bit more motivated again. So I think the best place to start is begin to tackle some of the topics i’ve wanted to write about for the past while. I know i’m not going to hit every point I want to make in this post, but I think it’s a start and I know that I still have much to learn in the coming years. So here’s to a post about some of the things i’ve learned not…

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Gleams of Sun.

For those close to me, many know the last few weeks have been bumpy for me. I have had plenty on my mind to think about and have sought the advice of those around me on how I have felt about a particular situation that’s been going on. Sometimes it really sucks to not only be intuitive but to also be empathic. I pick up on people’s thoughts and intentions really quickly, sometime to the extent I don’t even need to be in the same vicinity as them. I know for some that’s a completely weird concept to wrap their…

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Things I’ve Realized Being a People Pleaser.

Over the past fews months i’ve come to a realization being a chronic people-pleaser. Although i’ve gotten a lot better in recent years, there’s always room for improvement. I decided to compile a list because i’m always looking for ways on how I can improve myself and learn from my mistakes. 1. I don’t know how to cut ties with anyone. I’ve always struggled with how to let go of all the toxic people in my life out of fear of hurting their feelings or making them hate me. However, I have made some drastic changes in who I keep in…

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