A Day in the Life of a Student With an Anxiety Disorder.

Every day is a challenge. I wake up with a nervous stomachache. I get dressed and put on my mascara, trying to hold the brush tightly with shaky hands. I try to eat something, but I can’t. Everything makes me feel sick. At school I greet my friends with a fake smile and try to appear as calm as can be. It doesn’t last long. I spill out my worries in a stream of chatter. They are all irrational, so nobody understands. They tell me to “just calm down” and “it’ll be OK.” I don’t understand why it’s only me fearing…

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Onwards and Upwards.

Been feeling good about myself lately. The end of last year was such a wreck for me so it’s honestly refreshing to see myself going back to being me. The old positive, happy-go-lucky, and passionate person that disappeared after dealing with grief, heartbreak, and loss. Slowly but surely I am getting there and man does it feel good. I missed myself so much. I’m not going to lie and say everyday is easy because that would be a lie. I still get the occasional panic or anxiety attack but I know i’m on the right track. I know this time around…

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Basic Income in Ontario.

A Canadian province is to run a pilot project aimed at providing every citizen a minimum basic income of $1,320 (£773) a month. The provincial government of Ontario confirmed it is holding public consultations on the $25m (£15m) project over the next two months, which could replace social assistance payments administered by the province for people aged 18 to 65. People with disabilities will receive $500 (£292) more under the scheme, and individuals who earn less than $22,000 (£13,000) a year after tax will have their incomes topped up to reach that threshold. The pilot report was submitted by Conservative ex-senator Hugh…

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Lessons from Level 1 Nursing.

This week has literally been go,go,go,go. Since i’ve finished up my placement for the year, I decided it was a good idea to use those two extra shifts to pick up hours at my part-time job. Boy was I in for a surprise with how much time I lose out in other areas. On top of that with OSCE’s creeping up and our class not performing that great on the midterm test, a couple of peers and I thought it would be a great idea to book four extra hours in the lab to practice our clinical skills and interviews…

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Busy Bee.

Life is in full gear right now. I’m definately missing keeping up with my blog, but I’ve been finding it incredibly hard to find time to update. Hoping after this week things will start to settle down, but I realize I have a looooot to catch up on with school. How about that biochem or even more nerve wrecking the second round of objective structured clinical examinations (OSCEs). I have quite a few blog post ideas that are running through my mind though and i’m pretty excited to get to it whenever I get the chance. Crazy to think just…

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When One Door Closes.

If there is any statement that is more true in life it is that – when one door closes other doors will open. I’ve come to the realization that there are so many different opportunities and directions to go in life that doors are always waiting for you to go through them and experience what is beyond them. You just have to choose which ones you want to go through and which ones you want to leave behind. Last summer, after my major bout of depression I found out I would not be able to go back to my summer…

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Making Amends.

Normally, I don’t post two personal posts on the same day. I like to save content and space things out but I felt this warranted it’s own post.  I’ve been doing a ton of reflecting the past few months over a lot of things that have happened over the past year or so. The people who have come into or left my life. I’ve reached out to people I haven’t talked in months and had enjoyable conversations. But importantly I feel inspired and loved by some of the people I have reconnected with. Many of those people know about my…

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Memories.

The past few weeks have been pretty tough on me emotionally. I think a lot of it started recently when I was asked to be the standardized patient for one of the healthcare programs at my school and then with the passing of both my dogs around this time last year. I love acting and I love the ability to help other people learn through hands on practice. But to be honest this case hit pretty close to home. I was a young girl who got pregnant and had to simulate the three decisions that come along with pregnancy (keeping…

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Reflections.

A few nights ago, I had a really heartfelt chat with someone I consider pretty close to me and someone I’ve grown to become protective over in making sure they were okay. It was in this conversation that the pointed out some of the qualities I have that I never really think about and why I do or express things the way I have. I never really gave my actions a second thought, but for me it’s a natural instinct to go over and check on people. To ask questions and to follow my gut feeling if something doesn’t feel…

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Gleams of Sun.

For those close to me, many know the last few weeks have been bumpy for me. I have had plenty on my mind to think about and have sought the advice of those around me on how I have felt about a particular situation that’s been going on. Sometimes it really sucks to not only be intuitive but to also be empathic. I pick up on people’s thoughts and intentions really quickly, sometime to the extent I don’t even need to be in the same vicinity as them. I know for some that’s a completely weird concept to wrap their…

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